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im'a gonna get BANGS.

2010-12-20T21:58:00.000+08:00

whoo~

finally fell in love with a hair style.
i have NEVER fell in love with any hairstyle before, yeps serious.

yeps this is the one! nice right?
totally lovely.
extremely excited about getting the haircut.
hope it wont be disappointing!

mine will be longer.
really hopes it work!

the first christmas present i received this year is a box of rittersport chocolate consisting of conflakes, almond, hazelnut and praline.
rocks!
she's so sweet :)

anyways, i have always hoped to celebrate christmas with close friends and the thing is some didnt survive.
sad truth.
i dont know what happened.
maybe it just wasnt meant to be.

but for those who did, i really treasure yall, really.
friends that survive the test of time is really precious.
treasure them before its too late.
but sometimes maybe its just the work of fate.

so i was watching the new HK drama and one of the main characters who got terminally ill and deeply in love said, even if it's just for one second, it will be considered as being with you for eternity.
and that is so sad!
so moral of the story today, treasure all the people who loves you and whom you love.
nothing is more important than relationships in life.
im serious.

think before you eat!

2010-12-16T15:55:00.000+08:00

i seriously hope mankind will become extinct.

why has the world become what it is today?

it is so sad to know that people are doing everything for money.
be it forced or willing due to unnecessary brainwashes since young in the education system.

you can just go out there and ask any stranger why do people work and i'm pretty sure most of them will say "for money".
is money really that important?
the people who have the power made them so.
they are rich and powerful so they became overwhelmed by that and made everyone on earth depend on money.

it struck me hard that day when i heard a mother who's also a teacher scold her child for asking why does a spider have eight legs?
it's like many people have forgotten about the real meaning of education.
and it's sad to know.
people are stressed, overly competitive, memorising, blindly reading.
maybe they don't know what the true meaning of education is because they never had the chance to go through it in the first place.

there are still many things that i want to say but i guess this is enough for you who's reading this.

the world doesn't belong to us, we belong to the world.
and we need to do something to correct the mistakes that our ancestors made.
the desire to have a better life but instead threw away some important way of thinking and got lost.

if positive change doesn't take place, i seriously think that the only way to solve things is for humans to die out, yes including myself.

WHOO~

2010-12-11T23:57:00.000+08:00

hmm, okay so i realised that kids of teachers aint necessary good in studies or the particular subject that their parent/s specialise in.
but then again this is just a stereo-typical assumption that parents from other professions can't educate their children or something of that sort.

anyway, that's not the main thing that i wish to share today, the main thing is:
WE WILL NEVER KNOW WHAT LOVE IS.

okay, why do i make that claim?!

1. love is different for everyone, so if one knows what love is, nobody else can justify.
2. it is just a type of feeling or sensation that is just an illusion, it actually doesnt exist.

okay people, go ahead and disagree with me.

anyways, i think that love is this abstract term that people use to label this group of emotions, feelings and sensations that is felt in contrast with hate.
DUH.

to me, love is something that makes time feel like it goes faster, makes you forget about things, makes you crazy and angry for no reason, cry when the person you love is sad, makes you think silly things and actually do them, get very happy because of a minor thing and the list could go on.

if you ever think that you have understood what is love, then you really havent.
because i think that love is like a process, something that you can never know but can only be in.

to all out there who loves and are being loved, that's the best thing that can ever happen.

moral of the story: dont try to find out what love is, just be in it.

Please visit my ever so pretty blogshop!

2010-12-09T19:17:00.000+08:00

GO TO RAYNEBOWSG NOW!!!

okay i spent so much effort on it.
my shoulders are aching!
they're like forever aching so it doesn't really matter.

okay, so i was watching the national geographic episodes about the holy bible, there are 3 episodes in all and i watched all because they're SO COOL.

firstly, i'm not a christian, and i dont know if i will go to hell after i die, but going there is cool anyway.
and i'm currently reading the holy bible, which i made a book cover so pretty i'm so proud of it.
i need to take a picture of it and show it to everyone:

okay its like black felt with light blue satin bordered ribbon, heart charm violin charm and BLING BLING of which one(the middle one) fell out.

anyways, back to the topic, the first episode is about the Knights Templar, the second about the rivals of Jesus and the third about the controversy for the final book of the holy bible: Revelation.

everyone should go watch it. i found some parts amusing while other parts are scary, true or inspiring.
sure to make you feel as if you have gained more knowledge.

oh and that day i was watching 1B.C. and its like mocking the stories from the bible.
totally lame and so not worth watching.

okay ever since holidays started i'm feeling SO lazy and fat.
i need to GO ON A DIET! (no offense to anyone)
but the fact is I HAVE PUT ON SO MUCH WEIGHT! :(
not a happy fact to be happy about a.k.a. *CRIES*

I didnt realise people actually check my blog.
it's like MY blog, why would anyone check it?

anyways, i need to be more on time too!
so i totally set my hp clock 15 minutes earlier but i think it won't really work anyway.
moral of the story, i need to be on time.

okay, i shall update my blog more often since i have the time.
SO PLEASE VISIT RAYNEBOWSG NOW!!!!

holidays~

2010-12-02T12:37:00.000+08:00

yay, its finally the holidays and exams are OVER.

but i need to get my results first before i can enjoy the holiday.
and i need to practice my grade 8 pieces to perfection :(
the exam is like so expensive...

anyways, can't wait for christmas :)

and yes, I'm like finally updating my blog after a freaking long time.
busy ma.

I'm totally reviving my blogshop and planning to rent a cube space to sell my things too.
HOPE IT'LL WORK!

Happy holidays to all having holidays :)
for those who still needs to go to work, too bad, yall had your holidays when you were our age already.

messy messy messy

2010-09-03T12:22:00.000+08:00

firstly, please cover your ears now as I'm going to *AHHHHHHHHH!*

okay, relieved.

hmm, life sucks, for now at least.
and I am greatly depressed. :(

anyways, I'll recover from this soon enough.
okay I have so many readings to read that I was supposed to start like 3 hours ago.

I got into 2 CCAs.
the good thing is, they both don't clash at all,
the bad thing is I will be as busy as a mad woman.
*no offense to mad women, just a simile to make my point more sound*

anyways, so I got into symphony orchestra which is going to have a concert really soon, and voices.
like yay, i got into both, but boo, i will be so busy.

I need to organise my life desperately before it all runs out of control.
head pain a.k.a headache.

I shall zoom zoom go read all the stuffs alr.
I have limited time, like really.

so goodbye.

sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh.

2010-08-15T23:54:00.000+08:00

uni life is so sad (at least thus far).
okay, because there is so many things to do.
so many every thing to do; admin, lesson, cca.
and yes i am complaining.

this blog had been dead.
but now i'm more not alive then the blog that i decide to post something.
sighs.

don't see the point.
i am feeling so vexed now at this very moment i am typing this sentence that i felt like i have turned into an aged woman.
urghh.
complaining complaining.

it will get better.
it can only get better.
so totally looking forward to my "new"(?) life which has already begun.
yayness...

i realise that

2010-07-21T18:52:00.000+08:00

I have not updated my blog for sososososo long, i shall do it now,
out of extreme randomness and spontaneity.

my noisy neighbours are currently having fun at everybody's corridor at the expense of our peace and tranquility.
sighs.

hope they can develop to be able to communicate in radio waves.
so that i cant hear them.

so the school registration is TOMORROW and school starts in 12 DAYS.
*what? only 12 more days?!*

okay so im currently an anit-social freak hiding at home, and doing all the anti-social freak stuffs.
but i will eventually make lots of friends okay.
at least i'll try...

hope everything will be okay at school.
and that i can graduate alive.

oh, please visit my blog shop now!!!!
HERE
i will very much appreciate if you happen to see something that you fall in love with instantly there and order it from me and hence buy it :)
because there's currently a 10% storewide sale that will end on 31st july!

been busy

2010-06-16T23:17:00.003+08:00

with preparing for the flea.

visit HERE for some of the things that I've made.

I've made many actually, but haven't took pictures of them to upload and blah.
so ya, i still have many unrevealed items.
*mysterious*
muahahahahahahahahha.

anyways.
so i got a call for a upper secondary tuition job today.
and i was thinking, hmm, a source of income every month cant be that bad.
so i said yes.
even though i said that i will never ever give tuition to anyone.

okay, i'm tired now.
and i just booked a slot for the medical checkup.
and i realised that going into a university is so so troublesome.
sigh!

was looking forward to 2nd August, a.k.a. first day of school.
but NOT ANY MORE.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

26th June 2010

2010-06-05T10:36:00.002+08:00

is a very important day as I HAVE CONFIRMED THE BOOKING OF A BOOTH AT THE FLEA HELD IN SUPPERCLUB!

whoo~

so very excited about it.

so must come support me okay!
like physical support, its okay if yall dont buy anything from me but giving me comments on how to improve will be good enough :)

so i shall see what the response is like, and if it is good, i shall set up stalls at more fleas to come.
and i really hope that the response is good.

been busy with the preparations of the things im going to sell.
still quite a few things to buy.

and i think its going to be so fun~
so see you there!

i made many earrings today

2010-05-30T22:32:00.008+08:00

in preparation for the flea~

okay, i am jobless now, i am not supposed to shop.
but as i looked through the online clothes shop, i fell in love with these:

i am not a shopaholic.
but i want to own all of the above. :)
(er, not the models, the clothes that they are wearing.)

last day of work for the 3rd job in my entire life

2010-05-27T20:31:00.003+08:00

and it feels cool.

because, its like we're all just getting used to it and then I LEAVE.
yeps.

so now i am officially unemployed.
and my phone is dying, i need a new phone.
and i cant decide which to buy.
and there's about 2 more months before school starts.

oh ya, thanks my dearest colleagues for feeling sad while i left and even gave me presents.
thanks james for the cd, i will appreciate the music slowly.
and thanks susie for the so very adorable tanned winnie-the-pooh.
and thanks mr khoo and james and jasmine for treating me to food.
and thanks felicia for being so fun to be with and talk to(even though we shouldnt be doing those).
and lastly i thank susie once again for hiring me so that i have the chance to meet these wonderful people.
and some not so wonderful ones who are still nice anyways.
and one special someone whom i met and shall not divulge who it is. hohoho.

i cannot shop anymore and this is depressing :((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((
especially when the GSS is coming soon. :(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

i shall get something that can let me earn money soon.
like tuition.
which i dont enjoy at all.
sighs.

flea flea~
okay hope i can successfully be involved in a flea and actually sell the things that i made.

and lastly and randomly, my shoulders ultimate ache.

Respect

2010-05-15T19:54:00.003+08:00

i was watching this documentary on the late Dr Goh Keng Swee and i cried at many instances while doing so.
Dr Goh is really a great person and there are many things that we can learn from what he had done and his character traits.

its like why do some people do things for the people?
i think many things have to be sacrificed in the process.

i really hope that a group of people will appear in the political landscape of Singapore in future to bring about a revolutionary shift, positive of course, amazing like the forefathers of Singapore.

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okay but i am feeling really really terrible right now.
like terrible terrible terrible terrible terrible.

...

been feeling rather depressed lately.
about my life, about the world, about people.
keep wondering why things happen, could they have been prevented.

i dont even know what i am depressed about.
and i have no motivation to do things.
and this is bad.
i need to get my motivation back.

:(

tiring

2010-05-14T21:26:00.002+08:00

i have been feeling tired these few days.
and i dont know why.

WHY?!

okay so i have been reading this book entitled "introduction to LOGIC".
and it is so very cool and interesting that it is killing my brain.
like because i need to think deeply a lot as i read it.

ya, its like chim-er probability.
okay sort of understanding probability.

and i'm loving it.
whoots~

i have decided that i do not want to go for the FASS camp from the 21st to 25th of june as i want to work.
after weighing the pros and cons, working is still better than playing as i totally do not enjoy this kind of play.
like shouting, laughing, team building, cheering, running around, sweating, the usual stuffs.
nope.
it's like, i dont even know you well enough to want to play with you, so forget it.
okay i sound so unfriendly, rephrase.

i find earning money better than forgoing the money that i can earn while spending on this orientation thingy while not enjoying it.

okay so conclusion is, i am not going.

okay the fact is i am feeling tired now.
and the current place that i am working at is not that great, except for some nice people that i met there.
and the obligation to complete my responsibilities.
okay i so totally feel that i am sprouting nonsense now that i should stop.

so goodbye.

Happy Mothers' Day :)

2010-05-09T22:20:00.003+08:00

i went shopping with mel today, though it wasn't really efficient but it was fun~~~

we shall go out again soon :)

okay i bought a super cute and nice letter pad with kutusita nyanko all over it.
and kutusita nyanko is this:

it shall be my favorite character for now. :)

oh so i bought a pair of flats with leopard prints on it.
and the pair of heels that i so very wanted to buy ever since i first saw it is OUT OF MY SIZE.
this saddens me so much.
sighs.

oh and then we went to buy a cake for our mothers respectively, and we realised that there was only one tiramisu cake left, and our mothers do not like chocolate related cakes.
so in the end i went back to bb and bought a oreomisu for my mother instead.
because the tiramisu is sold out as well.

i bought many clothings this month, like 3 dresses, 4 tops, a skirt, a bikini(i don't know for what) and 2 pairs of shoes.
i have like 2 more dresses in mind, okay more than that, actually 4 more and a bag to buy.
is that a lot?
it's like not enough to me.
clothes are never enough.
and shopping, to me, is the best medicine for anything.
just like eating chocolate, sweets and ice cream.
random fyi: i don't drink coffee.

and i just realised that its only the 9th day of this month.
this is bad.

okay, so today is mothers' day.
although my mum doesnt read this:
HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY MUMMY!
i really really love you even though you always say brainless things and act annoying at times.
and i know you're really touched by the cake.
:)
because of you, i will be a great mother next time too; if i ever get to have kids that is.

sigh.

2010-05-08T22:18:00.003+08:00

i've been hurt so many times that i am immune to things that hurt me.
emotionally of course.
im not made of IRON.

okay not in the mood to joke.
i just dont want to get hurt anymore.

sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh.
sigh.
sigh.

friends, please dont ask me why im feeling like this.
maybe next time.

is it really true that im immune?
or is it because i'm hurt so many times that im used to it.
or are they both the same things.
i dont know and dont care for now.
goodbye.

okay

2010-05-05T22:01:00.003+08:00

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okay, so i was feeling a little emotional today.
and was wondering about random things.

oh, and i suddenly had this thought that maybe we are like a scientific experiment where greater things who control us are trying to find out when the world will come to an end if we live our lives like that.
and i know that they will find out the answer soon.

hmm, i feel so lost nowadays as i have no motivation to perform tasks.
i need to find sth to motivate me.
and i have been wondering about the meaning of life very much.
perhaps because i am going to major in philosophy.
and i feel lost and frustrated when i realise that what people in general are doing now is so meaningless and harmful.

its like every "sane" being that i know of tells me that i should not take philosophy as it is so impractical and gets me nowhere.
so i should take things like business, political science and blah.
but the point is, so they're trying to say that a common degree like accountancy will result in a stable high paying job in future; thus will have a lot of money.
ya i understand that point, but after earning a lot of money: then?
and it also doesn't mean that people who graduate with a major in philo don't have the chance and/or ability to earn big bucks.
i just think that i don't want to lead the conventional life that everyone's leading, study, graduate, get a job, earn money, meet the guy, get married, have kids or not.
okay maybe i am generalising but my point is: i don't have to lead the socially correct way of life, i don't have to lead a life that people who are influenced greatly by the society tells me to and most importantly i only have one life(at least i think so for now) so i want to live it how i think i would be happiest.

okay so i believe that there is no point earning big bucks if i cant spend quality time with my family and friends. but i don't deny the fact that i would wish very much to earn big bucks so that i can exchange objects with them for my family, friends and myself to be happy.

anyways, at least i know what i am doing, and i know where i am heading towards.
the fact is, i have been unsure about things my whole life.
and i have decided to be firm about this.
i think its quite an important decision to make, and i have made it.
so i will just do my best and hopefully prove those who think otherwise wrong.

its like, so what if someone has a degree, not everyone who can study are smart.
i believe that different people have different areas in which they can excel at.
even the educational system is indirectly set by society.
like say if the technique for spinning coins is very important in the society, then everyone must learn to spin coins because if you don't know how to spin coins, you will be looked down upon or become classified as a weirdo since everyone else can spin coins.

but is what society thinks really that important?!
yes and no.

LONER

2010-05-03T21:47:00.003+08:00

i went shopping at bugis last friday alone.
and i bought many things.
and i still have many things to buy.

okay, so i saw this nice shop and decided that i would go back to that shop again after going to other shops.
and it just so happened that i couldnt locate the shop after that and walked like one million times around the whole of bugis street and ya i couldnt locate the shop ever again.

okay, so tomorrow there's etude.
and i am going.
ALONE.

being alone is good.
but, anyone wants to dine with me?!
text me okay.

today is

2010-04-22T20:05:00.003+08:00

an ultimate BAD DAY.

i hate the uneven pavements that causes puddles to form when it rains.
i hate buses who drive pass these puddles and splash water at people who are on the pavement.
i hate the whole area called tiong bahru.

but i love rain.
and at least it was fun to get splashed unexpectedly.
and get wet all over.
and get onto the train as the only wet person.
where everyone stares.

and i laugh to myself.
thinking about how stupid the people are.
to be such busybodies.
and at least i was the center of attention.

rainy days are fun.
just not the part where i feel cold, wet and uncomfortable.

yay, i got a new job

2010-04-19T19:08:00.002+08:00

and yay, i went shopping with my mum.
but totally SIAN-ED that i need to start working again.
and cant rot like an apple at home.
:(

at least i will still have my weekends free.

sighs.

i am playing spot the difference on face book.
it is so fun and addictive.

okay, so today i bought food, lipstick, and lotsa beads, charms and blah because i forced my momma to go to china town with me.
WHAHAHA.
okay and my momma is such a BIMBO i hope i wont grow to be like her.
(all those giggling now and think how ridiculous it is that i am NOT pretty enough to be a bimbo, thanks i get you and you can stop now.)
yes.
she did SO many boo boos today that i ...
that i ...
that i wont say due to the respect i still have for her as someone who is older and as someone who gave birth to me.

oh and the lipstick colour is SO very nice!
i still need shoes and clothes.
cant wait to shop with chris and katty :)

and did i mention that my job starts TOMORROW?
oh well.
i hope irritating male beings do not notice me, talk to me and add trouble to my life there in work.
work in peace.

I hope my sorethroat recovers in time

2010-04-18T12:59:00.002+08:00

before the job interview tomorrow.

and i really, sincerely hope that i didn't speculate the time wrongly.

anyway, i am so bored at home.
and i really need a new camera.
sigh, sigh, sigh, sigh, sighs.

it has been long since i updated the secret portion of my blog and i shall do it after i post this.

okay i was looking for a cool link, and i found this very addictive and impossible to complete quiz.
and was distracted for very long.

i dont even remember what i was going to type.
urgh.

I havent been ill since last march

2010-04-17T18:37:00.002+08:00

and now i am.

:((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

I HATE BEING SICK.
okay the fact is most usual beings do.

not in the mood to blog.
and i cant think.

this is very bad.

I'm sprouting nonsense.
okay people who know me will say something like,"there isn't a time when you don't sprout nonsense."
and I'll be like,"ya, true."

i shall not talk about the ultimate fail outing.

and i just did.

never mind.

i have a job interview on monday.
and when the person called, i was so excited i FORGOT what she said about what time to reach the place.
mega urghs.
so i pondered hard about the possibilities, and think that it should be 10am.
and i have already thought of what to say if i am early or late.
i hope my guess is correct.
*cross fingers*
and most importantly i hope i get the job!
then i will have to forgo parts of orientation on weekdays and during office hours.

my bloody brother keeps asking me what bloody time it is when i cant speak with a bloody sore throat.
i am officially annoyed.
by the sore throat and people who asks me to speak to them.

i dislike washing dishes :(

2010-04-14T15:12:00.002+08:00

anyways, i went out to meet dear panda yesterday and i went shopping alone!
the point is: i bought a chiffon flora skirt, a blue cotton blazer and a T-shirt dress!
WHOOTS.
go out with me somebody so that i can wear them out.

i need to cook dinner today.
sighs.
i so don't want to do it as i am LAZY.
i so need to vacuum the house too.
and i so need to practice violin.

urgh.

i am supposed to enjoy them.
like enjoy what you're doing while you can.
so that you wont regret when you cant do what you're doing now in future.

sigh.
sigh.
sigh.
sigh.
mega sigh.

sometimes there are so many things that i can't understand that i don't even bother trying to understand them.
and this is bad.
i need to get my brains to function well.

i need to think more.
thinking is fun.

I'm like learning chess now on a Nintendo DS game called "learn to play chess".
ya, duh.
and i realised that i so cannot play it as I'm not thinking enough.
but at least I'm trying and improving.

there are so many things that i need to buy.
I NEED A JOB.

i am so very free

2010-04-13T10:42:00.002+08:00

i need a job.
and i am looking for one.

i heart singing~~
the Kbox session yesterday with pw035 was so very fun!

i will go for another session again.
i think my singing has improved already.
and thank you Chan for being so supportive of me :)

i will be going to eat lunch with poor weiling later.
dont worry dear, only 2 days left.

i cant wait to go shopping with dear chrisliew again :)

and i hope the KL trip will be successfully planned and carried out.

urgh. im too lazy to type anything else.

SHOPPING~~

2010-04-11T10:02:00.002+08:00

yay, i went shopping with dear chris liew yesterday after going back to SCHOOL to visit my horn juniors.

the point is i have finally bought my white maryjanes!
*mega smiles*

okay, although it is very pretty, it is also VERY high. like 5-6inches?
and we tried on our new heels.
and i almost died.
okay i died.
cause i was walking SO slowly the snail turned its head to look at me when it passed by.

today is sunday~
which means tomorrow will be monday.
(duh)
ya, and there will be a happy kbox outing for PW group 035
but i have yet to locate my kbox membership card which is somewhere in the house.
OPPS.
but i will find it because if i dont, they will probably just murder me.

i shall continue locating it now.

today is my last day

2010-04-09T09:15:00.004+08:00

here at this so very exciting job.

WHOOTS~

i am so going to celebrate.
BUT they have yet to bank in our pay for last month yet.
how sad.
cant celebrate much yet.
but i shall celebrate when i get my pay.
by shopping of course.

i am so looking forward to GSS!
its like the first time where i spend the money that i earn by myself.
and it feels so good.

oh anyways, there were many FAIL things that i did yesterday and i don't even know why i did them.
so the first one was:
xiwen and I were on the escalator.
xiwen: I'm going to buy eclipse
me: oh, what kind of clips?
xiwen: ..., Eclipse?
me: OMG, LOL.
*laughs very hard*

as for the rest, we cant recall.
i bet cause it was too FAIL.

talking about FAIL,
i came across this picture yesterday and it is so very sad!

its like, guy in the middle, just give up.

looking forward to the Kbox session,
yes i have been constantly practicing and i am fairly sure that my singing has improved since the last time i went Kboxing.
yay~

oh and did i mention that i removed my Gaga nails?
because i couldn't stand having things on my nails when playing on my violin.
so I'll spread a new coat like after violin lesson today and remove it again on Wednesday and the cycle continues.

okay i am totally distracted by the website of the day that I'm introducing to yall today.
so good bye.

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I'm bored and have nothing to do now.

and i was reading my friends' blogs before i typed this.
and i have realised that i should read their blogs more often so that i understand them better.
I'm sorry my dear friends i have neglected your blogs!
i will repent and change.
but i think after today i wont be using much of the computer as they causes pimples.
but I'll still try.

i just got a tuition job

2010-04-08T11:28:00.002+08:00

although i was happy initially, i feel so sian-ed now.

okay its this primary 5 kid who needs help in Chinese, English and Math.

and its on a Friday.
(WHY OF ALL DAYS FRIDAY??!)
thus it is also my violin lesson day.

#)(@)*#&$%*#@&$#@

i so dont enjoy teaching people things.
okay i never tried giving private tuition before maybe i'll enjoy it.
but now i am sian-ed.
like ultimate, mega sian-ed.

*whines*

but whatever i need money.
thus i need to find ways to earn them.

SIGHS.
SIGHS.
SIGHS.

this blog post is so complainy so just ignore me.
i am so not in a good mood now.

Something New

2010-04-07T10:27:00.003+08:00

i have decided to add this new section onto my blog to save the lives of people who are BORED.

you can visit the new section by clicking on the very big word Secret.

since its called secret, i wont tell you what is in there.
you'll have to find it out yourself :)

okay, i have nothing to do today since the day they exploited me.
to verify 300++ applicants.
till date, that incident HAUNTS me.
*brrrrr*
which is good(the nothing to do part).
so i busy myself by looking for my next job.
and i so totally do not want to work at any admin related job again.

i hope i get calls for job interviews soon.
though i would really love to slack and rot like a tomato at home.
i think that if i get a job that coincides with my interest in future, i will become a workaholic.

i searched the whole of jobstreet.com yesterday and realised that there are so many internships for finance, business, IT, computing, arts & design students.
JUST NOTHING FOR FASS STUDENTS.
what will my future be like.

just 3 alphabets: FUN.

i don't want to lead a life like everybody else.
like do the same old things everyday.
and do all the things that everyone does.
i want to be different and live my life my own way.
so that i wont waste my lifetime away.

so i don't care if people thinks that I'm weird, crazy, brainless or whatever.
but this doesn't mean that i lead a selfish life.
because my life ain't no complete without my dear mummy, daddy, (stupid)brothers and great friends.

okay i shall go do up the new section now.

okay it is done.
and i have finally figured out how to let people read my older posts.
its under sweets.
after you click on the post, you need to click on thoughts again to read it.

i finally got my MP3 back

2010-04-06T15:53:00.007+08:00

from my dearest brother who is going to finish his NS.
because he bought a new samsung MP3 which is COOLER than mine.

but my violin teacher says that listening with ear piece will disimprove my hearing.
which needs to be sensitive.
but WHATEVER!
I'll just switch the volume to like 3 or something.

i love 1234 by plain white t's!
the music video is so very sweet.
guys with a good voice(not the self denial kind, the universally agreed kind) should sing this song to their girl friends and make them melt.

today has been quite a slack day.
same old things again, i cant wait to leave.
im like looking at my nails now and i really love them! :)
and i realised that i have yet to take a picture of them to show the world~

oh, and i am so tempted to buy the pretty nail polish-es:

okay i have successfully eliminated the whole list to 4 lists.
i am pro :)
i shall then decide on which ones to buy.
or make myself~
yes i mix my own nail polish colours which includes the one that is on my nails now.

i especially like the pastel and sugar-coated collection(the very pink one).
okay i like all of them.
i want to own all of them but i actually dont need any of them.
this is bad.

shopping is good.
i think my life is so amazing.
i can shop, eat, sleep, play violin, sing, make nice things, be with my friends, make more friends, make people laugh, bake nice things(which fail terribly sometimes), make breakfast on weekends and force my brothers to consume them, make people angry unknowingly and then pretend that nothing happen and make them smile again :)
life is too short to be sad, depressed or angry!

oh and yesterday night my eldest brother told my parents some shocking news when i was in the room and pretended that i was not involved.
and don't ask me what he said because i wont tell you.
ya, and you'll go: *mega roll eyes* then what for you say that.
and i'll say: this is my blog and one of my hobbies is to annoy people.

okay.
i really need to look for a job soon as i need MONEY.
so that i can shop happily.
and i need to save up for uni.
#)(*&$#@(*&$
advice to myself: please stop shopping.

.
.
.

which will never happen.

this is killing me

2010-04-05T15:19:00.003+08:00

firstly, I would like to

*SCREAM*

okay.

this is really killing me.
and i would like to take a break from it so i'm blogging now.

can you imagine what i am doing at the moment.
because I CANT.

*faints*

okay i verified 211 people from 8.45am to now including 1 hr plus of lunch break.
and my brain is so dead now like after the 3 hr math paper.
okay im blogging now because i have reached the half way mark of the excel sheet.
AND I AM DYING.

okay i cant wait to go shopping.
i cannot go clubbing or drinking as they are expensive activities unless someone treats me.

i think the only way that i get high is when i am tired since i wont get drunk.
LIKE NOW.
this very moment.
i need to stretch.

#)Q(*)(*$_@!*$_!(*#@$_.
i think im not in a good mood now.
and it is bad.

but one happy thing is:
PW group is going Kboxing at marina on monday :)))))))

i shall continue to do work now.

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OH GOSH I CANT BELIEVE I ACTUALLY COMPLETED WHAT I AM SUPPOSED TO DO.
I ROCK.

oh and have i mentioned that i have very cool blue and bling GAGA nails right now?
:)
and i love it!
i shall take a picture of it and post it here later at home.
that is if i have the energy to sustain myself that far.
as i am really SPENT now.

*faints*

and i am hungry too.
this is bad.
but at least i have pretty nails.

i'm actually blogging on a Saturday

2010-04-03T17:52:00.004+08:00

yes.

because, I HAVE UPDATED MY BLOG SHOP.
please go have a look at the 11 new hair accessories that I made TODAY.
CLICK HERE to go to my blog shop NOW.

Okay, I cant wait to go out with weiling tomorrow!
and I can't wait to spend money.
but my mum says i ought to save money for future use, esp when both me and my brother are going to university in the same year.
and nope, he's not taking the same course as me, he's doing science things while I'm in FASS.

i just received an email about this:

Event: Bazaar Weekends - Lunar New Year Special
Date: 9^th – 11^th April 2010
Time: 5pm to 11pm
Venue: SCAPE Youth Park

anybody interested to go with me?
to look at what other people are selling since i don't really have enough items to display properly yet.

okay, so me, chan, bear and ck will be going to Kbox next Saturday!
the $8 nett from 7pm onwards.
I think it will be tiring but so fun that we forget that we are tired.

okay so yesterday we(me, waner, cheekeong, jam and ross) went to celebrate jiarong's belated birthday and it was an ambush.
so all of us woke up early to prepare for the surprise.
and i was actually watching tv that i forgot about the time.
[because there is usually this tendency for one to not take note of the time when the place that he/she needs to go is very near to his/her house]
okay, so ck burst many balloons.
we ate chocolate banana cake, jam's agar agar which is not bad where i especially liked the coconut layer, and then took many pictures and then sat at the old folk's corner and talked for very long and then went to jiarong's house.
and then waner and ross needed to leave so the rest of us went to vivo(which i suggested very randomly) to eat late lunch.

WE WERE ALL VERY HUNGRY.
but didn't know where to dine.
so i suggested open numbers and then use the number to count through the restaurant list at the directory and we ended up with an expensive looking Chinese restaurant that we DIDN'T dine at.
so in the end we went to a Japanese restaurant and i ate SHIT(according to ck) and drank hot green tea.

and that shit-like curry was of a level of spiciness that my stomach could not withstand so i had a whole night of stomachaches.
curry is good, spicy stuffs are good, but i cant eat them, but i eat them sometimes anyways.

xiwen is not here today

2010-04-01T10:46:00.010+08:00

so i am alone in this room.
once again.

and I'm currently in pain and dying just like what my face book status says.
and I'm fairly hungry.
and i cant wait for lunch to COME.
like in 1 hour and 12 minutes.
RARS.

okay, i love s...
*somebody came and i TOTALLY forgot about what i was going to type*

weiling just asked me to draw something on msn.
cause she wants to play pictionary.
and I'm currently blogging and dying from pain at the same time.

OH I REMEMBER WHAT I WAS GOING TO TYPE!
okay, i love surprises and there will be a surprise for someone soon.

we(me and weiling) are so totally playing pictionary on MSN now.
so far the things that we guessed are: mango pudding with a spoon, my blog, VIP ????????????SUPER MANDARIN(the ? are Chinese words.) and my water bottle.

OH GOSH i still remember the day where Ross called her water bottle water vapour halfway through Geog class and i just cant stop laughing even though Ms Ting was pissed off.

okay it is getting so fun.
the excitement of trying to figure out weiling's artistically abstract drawings a.k.a. UGLY.

okay i shall put some pictures that i drew out of extreme boredom and to FU YAN weiling on MSN here:

this is a picture titled wonderland and i totally saw something like this in real life but
it has 5 whatever-you-call-thats.
I tried to take a picture of it but FAILED TERRIBLY.

I did this with PAINT.
This is titled Snow White and the happy animals.
You're supposed to look at it from very far away.

and lastly this is a colleague of ours.
which i think i drew very accurately and adorably.

THIS WAS ONE OF THE THINGS WEILING DREW and though i got it right at the first guess: TRISHAW.

it totally looked like an EXTREME SPORT.
like the guy in front is riding a bike at breakneck speed then the guy behind is flying with a parachute!

2010-03-31T13:37:00.008+08:00

I LOVE THE NEW LOOK OF MY BLOG!

i was like looking for nice Gothic pictures and i found this which is not bad:

but it keeps flickering so i decided to find one that is static.

okay i think its still not very done yet but presentable already.

i think weiling will kill me for making my blog look like that.
its like so beautifully Gothic!

haha.

and just now as i uploaded the flickering picture, i only uploaded one but like one million thousand picture appeared.
ya.

freaky...

anyway xiwen's comment was that that picture looks like ghost whisperer.

okay so I'm very full now after having that large serving of western food.
so very full.
and i now crave for MacDonald's breakfast a.k.a. me and weiling's favourite HOT CAKES WITH SAUSAGE!

and i cant watch my Spiderwick Chronicles now :(

i cant wait for the Kbox session with chan, ber and LCK.
been long since i held a microphone.
and i think my voice ROCKS.
*just let me live in self-denial*

oh and i realise i can't really take pictures of what i have made because my camera is NOT WORKING.
sighs.

and i realise the reason that i may be acting strange now is because i got stung by a HORNET on my head when i was young.
IN THE BLOODY MRT TRAIN.
ya, and the hornet had two stings.
i don't think it hurt but i just kept crying like shit.

i think that's all for now, I'm so sleeping as I'm digesting.

good-bye.

2010-03-30T16:03:00.003+08:00

I WAS SO IN THE MOOD TO PLAY HOTEL 626 A FEW MOMENTS AGO.

and now I'm not.

sighs.

why?

cause i was a little busy and then xiwen finish playing it already.
oh i just asked her.
and she say she wants the 3 of us(me, her and Johnson) to play together so its not that scary.

okay we shall play like tomorrow or something.
cause its currently raining heavily with thunder and lightning.
so the atmosphere is slightly too freaky to play.

I was so going to apply for the NUS scholarship.
AND I REALISED THE APPLICATION PORTAL IS CLOSED ALREADY.
YA.
anyways, i have decided not to apply for scholarships anymore since i think i most probably wont get it anyway, and it is so troublesome.

okay so today i was feeling slightly nauseous throughout the day.
but its okay, cause i still can function normally like i do when I'm not nauseous.

i want to drink alcohol too!(in response to xiwen)

so Johnson just said that i have symptoms which shows that I'm pregnant.
like ya whatever.
I'm just nauseous and feel like puking(duh), and feel like i cant breathe properly.
and i will have random food cravings at times.
BUT im not pregnant.

okay so i editted my blog shop's appearence today.
and i have yet to do so many things.
like buy the materials at the oh-so-ulu china town.
and take pictures of some stuffs that i made.

oh, thanks Chan for buying the pretty bracelet from me :)
you are like my very first customer a.k.a. virgin customer.
lol, it sounds so wrong.

anyways, so we(weiling, xiwen, me) were talking about extra virgin olive oil and how racheal ray says it as EVOO.
i dont even remember why we were on that topic.
We(me and xiwen) were talking about how nobody likes olives when weiling says she does.

I did some thing to this blog too!
to repair the not-supposed-to-look-like-that secret word at the top of this box ur looking at.
actually i have not done it yet but im going to do it NOW.
so goodbye.

OH! i actually forgot to say that, I HAVE NO VIOLIN LESSON THIS FRIDAY.
and THEY EXTENDED MY PAINFUL STAY HERE TILL THE 9TH OF APRIL.

2010-03-29T10:36:00.003+08:00

okay, so weiling wants me to blog again.

and I'm waiting to use the phone.
and the parent on the other line is very naggy.

alrights.
VISIT MY BLOG SHOP.
i was so happy when i saw 1 US visitor on the blog counter just now.
that's after i put up my URL everywhere.
like on all the free blog shop listings i could find.

i shall take pictures of the new things i made yesterday and put it up.
i finally downloaded photo shop and i am aware that my pictures are not perfect yet.
but at least im improving okay!

I'm wearing a nice pastel yellow dress today which is nice and i always look like I'm dressed ready for shopping.
and the fact is I AM.
just waiting for people who wants to shop to ask me to shop together.
it has been long since people who enjoys shopping as me goes out with me to shop together with me already so i went shopping yesterday alone.
and i was surprisingly efficient.
when i reached home everyone was like, " waoh, that's fast."
and i was like,"ya."

okay so i bought materials again.
and i am so excited to make new things.

and i have already received my enrolment package for NUS FASS.
it reached my house last Saturday.
yeps.
and that's the only thing i want to get into and applied for.
NO EXCITEMENT.

i realised my life has been like that since PSLE.
is it because i have no life or because i know my limits very well.
should be the latter.

okay, so I AM SO EXCITED ABOUT LEAVING THIS JOB.
I can finally stay at home and concentrate on my blog shop and violin and reading philo books like a nerdy freak.
philo books are so fun to read.
its like after reading them i can go entertain my friends with interesting stuffs to ponder about and enlighten them.
HAHA.

okay so actually i have NEVER thought that i could make it into a university.
but I DID.
so its quite amazing actually.
we should all believe in miracles.

THE WORLD IS A HAPPY PLACE.
for all those who are reading this and sad.
pause and think about all the happy things.
its good that u are sad.
then u will treasure the happiness.

*I'm very hungry now*

life is too short to bear grudges.
life is too short to do all the right things.
and my personal favourite from paris hilton: The only rule is don't be boring and dress cute wherever you go. Life is too short to blend in.

CANT WAIT FOR LUNCH.

2010-03-26T17:23:00.002+08:00

i am like knocking off in 7 minutes and weiling COMMANDS me to blog.

its like she just asked me if i think im pretty.
so i said no, at least not for now as i havent been sleeping early recently.
so its bad for the skin.
and this freaking job which i am leaving on Wednesday(WHOOTS~) requires me to use the damn computer mondays to fridays 8.30am to 5.30pm which causes harmful radiation to be reflected onto MY FACE?!!!

so ya, its good that im leaving :)
i think i'll be taking tuition after this.
like for primary school kids.

okay, so i'll be having violin lessons later and I have yet to sell anything from my blog shop can anyone tell me what's the problem?

too ex?
not pretty enough?
photos taken badly?
lousy description?

we are like playing games from orisinal.
you can click here to play too.
we have all agreed that the graphics rock and so does the music.
:)
my personal favourites are pocket full of stars, winter bells and floats.

listening to taylor swift's white horse on youtube now.
knocking off in 1 minute, weiling enjoy reading my post okay!
and please leave some lame comments, my tag board is so dead except for the stalker thingy that I MYSELF faked.

lastly, i hope i wont be late for my lesson today.
and please dont rain anymore!

2010-03-25T16:47:00.003+08:00

I AM OFFICIALLY FIRED BY THE NOT-SO-HIGH AUTHORITIES HERE.

WHOOTS~

i am finally leaving this place filled with flawed everything even those you cant imagine.

and I'm not sure if I'm looking for another job before school starts in August.
but now I'm officially free starting from next Wednesday which is the 31st of march 2010!

not very happy about the fact that I'm leaving my dear panda here alone but THEY BLOODY FIRED ME BEFORE THE CONTRACT IS UP.

ya, not like i don't do the things that I'm supposed to do properly but THEY JUST DON'T NEED ME ANYMORE.

not like i need or want them anyways.

alrights, so i have been calling people to tell them good news and finding time to look through online nice things from Gmarket.

YES, people who are reading this please visit my pretty blog shop and have a look :)
I'll try to put new pretty things up as long as I'm free.
which i don't know when but I'll try :)

i realised that resuming violin lessons have restricted me in doing many things such as going out happily and energetically on Friday nights. :(
living in peace before violin lessons on Fridays. :(
practicing hard whenever i have time after work on Mondays to Thursdays, repenting how not-good-enough i had played on Friday nights and Saturdays and trying to encourage myself to practice hard again on Sundays.

AND THE CYCLE CONTINUES.

ya and when i have time, I'll be making things for my blog shop.
SEE. this is why i say when I'm free i will put more pretty things up.

SO I AM SO UBER GLAD THAT I FIRED THEM.
so theoretically i am able to enjoy more free time from what i now spend as WORKING HOURS.

no more TGIF (thank God it's Friday)
but hello TGIF(thank God I'm Fired/Free)

*grins*

2010-03-22T11:16:00.004+08:00

I'm currently reading a book titled "Philosophy" by Stephen Law.
the best of it is that it is fully COLOURED!
WHOOTS~

okay so I'm requested by dear foo foo to blog again.

I AM SO GOING TO WATCH ALICE IN WONDERLAND TODAY, ALONE, FINALLY AT CAUSEWAY POINT.
and this does not mean that i am a loner, with no friends to accompany to complete tasks with.
just that i have never watched a movie alone for my whole life and its good to try new things.
:)
i might probably enjoy it very much that it becomes one of my new hobbies; to watch movies alone.
i know that people might probably queue up to watch a movie with me if i asked.
HAHA.
a.k.a. many will want to watch movie with me.

ANYWAYS, so me and Xiwen were like saying that we should create a joint blog so that we can get super good sponsors for our future wedding.
not OUR wedding as in me and Xiwen but me and my husband and she and hers.

okay so Xiwen just told me another funny story that i shall not disclose to keep you readers in menacing suspense!

okay so recently I'm so into the topic that love IS blind.
its like so many people around me(i shall not state explicit examples) are having a relationship with people(duh) but they deserved much better.
SIGHS.
its like i cant accept older guys dating younger girls like old old guys dating young young girls.
to me, its just inappropriate.
okay so Bella and Edward's one of the exception since Edward doesn't look like his real age.
that's not the point but personally, i just find it difficult to accept and wrong.

so the part about a good looking person dating a not so good looking one.
this is subjective.
but when one is in love, the looks doesn't matter much anymore.
or rather, when you love someone, you can only see the good part of the person.

so is this a sad thing?

okay, so I just received a warm greeting from Weiling:

HAPPY WORLD WATER DAY

so what is world water day?

[while the page is loading TERRIBLY SLOWLY, i shall sidetrack.
i am so going to buy a guitar and a camera.
which nice soul out there would kindly help me in buying one since I'm not good in both!
please text me and i will really appreciate any kind of help.]

i think i need to restart my laptop.

okay nvm.

The World Water Day 2010 and its campaign is envisaged to:
1. Raise awareness about sustaining healthy ecosystems and human well-being through addressing the increasing water quality challenges in water management and
2. Raise the profile of water quality by encouraging governments, organizations, communities, and individuals around the world to actively engage in proactively addressing water quality e.g. in pollution prevention, clean up and restoration.

okay.
now i am engaged in a very akward conversation.

okay that's all that I have to say for now.
TGIM and 8 mins to lunch.

lunch - the happiest moment of the day for hungry people; who doesn't eat breakfast and prefers not to have a heavy dinner, to savour delicious food.

2010-03-19T16:21:00.002+08:00

We(me and xiwen) we goggling about positions of moles on the body and their meanings.
and its interesting, engaging, funny and true.

okay so i said something too fast and it turned out as "if the person has a face near her mouth" in stead of "if the person has a mole near her mouth".
and it was super funny.
we are laughing about it until now.

yall who are interested can look this site to know more about meaning of moles on your body and this site to know more about the meaning of moles on your face!

:)

okay so i have violin lesson today again.
AND I HAVE YET TO FINISH PRACTICING WHAT I AM SUPPOSED TO.
*CRIES VERY HARD*

sighs.
i think i should totally treat my teacher more like a friend and not be so afraid of him.
yes, i should like try to do that as much as possible starting from today.
i'll try.
i think i will try.

I AM TOTALLY NOT DONE WITH THE SIGHT READING PIECE, THE SPECIAL STUDIES PIECE, MY DIMISHED SEVENTH STARTING WITH A FLAT and omg i am like so nervous about the lesson alr.

*faints*

hope it will end up okay.

2010-03-18T13:16:00.002+08:00

i am pissed off by disgusting freaks.

okay so people with higher authority are always right.
if they are not, it cannot be cause they are always right.
at least it stays as a conviction that they all have.

okay, so i have not submitted my university application yet.
and i am so pissed off now.
there are many reasons i can give to myself for not being pissed off but
WHATEVER just let me be pissed off.

so i am listening to 在银色的月光下 which is a nice, slow and calm piece that huang lao shi gave me to score to practice.
while being angry now which helps me to calm down.
okay im overall not an angry person.
since i cant remember anything well anyways.
but i'll remember to hate the people who angers me since i dont really get pissed off easily.
GREAT.

so theres violin lesson again tomorrow and i have yet to perfect the things i am supposed to.
SIGHS.
i am still so pissed off right now like a young and hot-blooded teenager which i dont think i am anymore.

okay anyways i am still pissed.

RARS.

WHY CAN PEOPLE PLAY SO WELL.
i will work hard to play well too.
since violin is something that i like and enjoy.

sighs.

2010-03-16T10:26:00.009+08:00

i enjoy my life as it is and i am proud to be who i am.

okay, so i was obsessed with taylor swift and her music.
and i envied the life that some celebrities lead, like how lucky they are to be what they are today, given a chance to develop their potential EVEN IF some of them do not really have amazing talents.
they are lucky.
its like many people out there are talented and have the potential to become famous and popular if they were given the chance to.
but they are just not discovered or not noticed and blah.
yeps so we need a lot of luck in this, and fate too.

anyways, so since i have decided to pursue PHILOSOPHY at university level, i have decided that i have to read more in this area.
so now I'm reading this book "101 Experiments in the Philosophy of Everyday Life" by Roger-poldroit.
The contents are interesting, sometimes crazy, but intriguing.
and the effects of the experiments are fascinating and allows me to view things differently.

i hope i can do well in it.

since i enjoy doing it.

anyways, i bought a pink dress that day and i am so excited about wearing it out.
my mum keeps complaining that my wordrobe is overflowing.
and the fact is, it is.
but clothes will never be enough!
and i think many people will agree with me for that.

I pity people who do not love themselves and treasure themselves.
so I'm referring to people who begs, eat ridiculously large amounts of unhealthy food and/or are not conscious of their hygiene(how they appear, dress).
why cant these people just be more aware of themselves.
its like they probably do not care about how others think of them.
but that's not the point!
its like they can sure be in a better state than they are now, so why not get themselves into the better state?
its not that you need to be rich to do all these; more of self respect.
sighs, but if they like it their own way theres nothing anybody can do.

so, i am bored and hungry now and becoming a shopaholic.
i want to get a guitar and a better camera!!!

oh and did i mention that I've got a new wallet already and its so very nice, sweet, cute, everything positive and i shall take a picture of it and post it here now.

isn't the bear princess so very adorable?

and the back of the wallet.

i even made this lanyard thing(the baby blue and pink thing on top) on it so that i can hold the wallet without actually holding on to it so that i wont dirty it.

2010-03-15T08:53:00.004+08:00

okay i have decided to apply for NUS FASS and major in PHILOSOPHY.
if i change my mind about my major i can change my mind then.

so i went to NUS open house last Saturday and i ate katty's SDE eggtarts which was very nice and tastey and she treated me to it.
and it was such coincidence that i spoke to the professor of introduction to philosophy of science.

okay i need to set up the room first.

okay so i set up-ed the room and went to the toilet.

i think i will be so free this week and this is great.

and xiwen will come back to accompany ME.
so i wont sit here and rot in solitude and ultimate boredem.

SIGHS.

i want to watch alice in wonderland very very much.

:(

and i have alot of things to do.

i made two pretty bracelets yesterday.
i shall take pictures of them and put them onto my blog shop.
and start promoting my shop to people soon so that my shop sells things.

i should seriously stop being lazy and un-motivated.
*slaps myself*
I NEED TO WAKE UP!

2010-03-12T13:57:00.002+08:00

I AM SO CONFUSED ABOUT MY LIFE NOW.

okay so i need to choose a course that i want to go into.

here are my choices:

1. SMU business management
2. NUS Business Admin
3. NUS FASS PHILOSOPHY!

as you can see, my interest so lie in choice number 3.
BUT i clearly know that if i were to plunge into that course, it is very risky.

thus the choice of 1 or 2 would be more practical.

HOWEVER, i have to consider the costs.
which leaves out my second most preferred course which is choice number 1.

i am also unsure if i can get into choice number 2.

HENCE i am in this deep dilemma.

sighs.

so my very kind, sweet and in pain friend panda weiling has just adviced me:

weiling. `mojo-jojo says:
my fav tcher keeps speaking to me on msn
then she advises take what you want la
cuz i was telling her i vexed over biz/econs
then she says what you take in uni doesnt matter what you do for your career
unless you want to be a teacher
so if you interested biz you take biz lor
if you interested philo take philo
lor
and cuz i also told her alot ppl tell me if i take econs my BA is very general as compare to a bbm
but she says bbm very wide too and she knows of many ppl who has BA or BS working in banks and finance too

yeps.

anyways i found the name of the module that i so totally want to take and i am so excited about it.
and it is known as the Introduction to Philosophy of Science!
i will so totally take that module even if i didnt end up in philosophy, which means that die die also must go nus since its the only university in singapore that has philosophy.

great.

looking forward to the open house tmr as i can see my dear ol' katty selling EGG TARTS!

and "looking forward" to my violin lesson later.

*cross fingers*

i dont know why but i am so very nervous whenever i play the violin in front of my violin teacher huang lao shi despite the fact that he doesnt scold me or exhibit any forms of gore or violence.

WHY.

2010-03-11T09:50:00.004+08:00

thank goodness today starts off rather well as a not so bright and sunny morning.
and i am finally ALONE again in this room.
i hope this solidarity will last though.

not that I'm a loner.

*okay work*
people are here for appeal.
its sad when i have to reject SO many people just because they can't meet the minimum entry requirement.

okay i shall go help and accompany them already, since that's what my in-charge wants me to do.

sighs.

why cant they have like some interview thingy and put people on waiting lists.
at least they will still have a chance to come in.

anyways.

weiling is BAD girl, cause she ps us(me and xiwen) for watching Alice in Wonderland.
what a bad bad girl.
so we'll be watching next Monday instead.

okay i just rejected a sad girl and today is the last day of the application portal.

its like on one hand why didn't they study harder to get a better grade.
on the other hand its like the results come out like that they also cant do anything much.

so yeps, so its just like that.

the packet lunch is not nice.
and i cant finish it even when i am very hungry.
the only thing i can finish is the drink.

okay i just got a shock because my in-charge walked in.
its like I'm blogging and i know the people can stalk me but i am still blogging.
this is because i have completed what i am supposed to do.

okay i shall get my number 1 fan of this blog FOO WEI LING, PANDA to read my blog now.
and i shall not tell her what her secret present is and keep her in such intense suspense that she hallucinates herself that time passes very slowly today :)

cheers.

okay so i just rejected another sad soul.
its like they need help but i cant even help them because this school follows the MER strictly.
ya.
so i see all their sad and disappointed faces and i cant do anything.
this is BAD.

2010-03-09T09:43:00.006+08:00

we(me, xiwen and waikit) were chatting about apnns.

anyways, then this girl came for verification stuffs and i was lost, ya so technically i was in the conversation but i wasnt involved.

so, yesterday i made this bunch of nice elastic beaded bracelets!

and i decided to give one of it to weiling.

i cant post the picture on now since i didnt bring bluetooth device or card reader.

oh well.

okay i just got a card reader from dear waikit yay.

so here's the nice pink bracelet with a gold heartshaped charm at the back(cant be seen in this pic), a nice ribbon, a pink rose and yummy looking pink beads!

yay, nice right.

if you think its not, its just the photograph.

2010-03-08T15:38:00.003+08:00

I've not been blogging for so many days!

i shall blog now that there's nobody and I'm done with my stuffs.

okay so i went for a rvcb french horn section gathering yesterday and while waiting for my dearest katty to come, i went shopping
*smiles*
and i bought this pretty white skirt that was on a 50% sale since its the last piece.
and i bought it.
and felt very satisfied and happy after that.

YES.

i shall wear it to work on Monday and hope that i DO NOT dirty it in any ways.

alrights.
so i did better than i expected for A's.
and i so totally didn't deserve my econs grade but didn't get what i felt i deserve for maths.

anyways, so now I'm contemplating between philosophy and business(management or hr).
since there are 3 choices it should be among.
but i shall decide after going for nus open house this sat.

and there's njcsb reunion dinner this sat too.
and i shall attend it to meet my dearest french horn section mates, not like i don't see them often; just my juniors.

oh ya, so yesterday i was supposed to buy materials to make a gold bracelet (not real gold of course, not that rich yet) for weiling, so i bought everything i needed and i realised i forgot to buy the chain.

*sian-ed*

so according to my dear colleague wai kit, i am suffering from my KARMA.
this is because there hasnt been anyone who comes to this application since it can easily be done online at the comfort of one's own home.
and today, being the first day that im taking care of this room alone, an amazing amount of 4 came with company at different times of the day, and mostly desperate and usually cannot meet the minimum entry requirement thus cannot do anything here.
but some stay here for ridiculously long hrs to question me.

okay our exact conversation:

TTMP KITTY says:
wah
alot of calls
one after another
164. (ying)2 . says:
lol
good
u karma too
TTMP KITTY says:
my cough is my karma already
164. (ying)2 . says:
lol
see
how much evils u have done
TTMP KITTY says:
dno
quite little compred to u
why am i suffering
164. (ying)2 . says:
tsk
u have just gained urself another KARMA
TTMP KITTY says:
nah
im not being bad
im just conveying the truth
164. (ying)2 . says:
...

okay so the only things left to do before the official opening of my blogshop is to take pictures of the items and put them on the blog.

and im officially resuming with my violin lessons this FRIDAY.
great.
this means that i have to eat dinner alone and bring my violin to work every FRIDAY.

NO MORE TGIF.

2010-02-27T16:21:00.011+08:00

i love 小情歌!

so i have learnt to sing it.

here it is :)

i couldn't record it with background music since i can only do so when I'm alone at home.

and its only a part of it though.
but i love it!

it sounds better when you listen to it using a earpiece.
as i have recorded it using my lousy phone.

anyways, the ice cream buffet rocks but we took a super LONG time to locate the swensens that weiling said i looked fierce and that she's never seen me this way before and she's scared.

lol.

so i ate 10 scoops of different flavours, an oreo cheese cake, a blondie and a fries that i shared with weiling.

i didn't finish everything, but most of them.

i love super lemon flavored scoop which appears as the white one of the third picture.

and me and weiling had so much fun joy and LAUGHTER there. :)

oh and i love the white chocolate fondue! :)))

the waffles and pancakes weren't that good but edible.
so in future i will still go with my friends!

so chris liew this is a date okay!

2010-02-25T08:42:00.009+08:00

i am so very depressed and relieved at the same time.

and this is annoying.

sighs.

its like how your life proceeds is influenced by your decisions and also others' decisions.
so sometimes some things happen which is not within your control.
and so you can't control it happening or not.
it just happens.

and the best thing you can do is move on with your life, be the thing that happened good or bad, and hope that the things that will happen after that will be better.

sighs.

i am finally continuing with my violin lessons on fridays after work.
this is going to be tiring but i can do it.
make myself busy with things so that i don't have time to think about other things.
and this is great.

i love my job for now.
yayness.

i have been escaping tasks since i have the natural incapably nua(literally = soft) look.
and i dont even have to do anything.

YES.

i escaped another one.

and anyways weiling said "im at brightsparks website now trying to figure out myfuture"
and i was like LOL but to the point:

i realised that there isnt anything i want in my life except to be happy and contented and making my family and loved ones happy too.

so is that a sad thing?

my goal is like nothing compared to others who wants to achieve so much.

theres nothing much i want to achieve.

really.

sighs.

so when people ask me what i want to be, what i want to study, my answer is theres nothing in particular.
and they will be like, how can i be so aimless blah blah, i should think more about my future in order to be successful...
but i dont really have anything that i want to do in mind.
i think i can do anything, as they come along.

i think im just not someone who can see further than 2 weeks?
i cant even remember things that happened yesterday.

so im having this horrible back and shoulder ache that is killing me.
i think i need medical help soon.
urgh.

i love this dress!

2010-02-24T15:45:00.003+08:00

i re-layouted my blog!
and i think its better then the last one.

i checked and sang is french for blood.

yes, i have turned into this saddistic individual that loves blood and gore and will laugh at animations where cute things got their heads cut off with blood splattering everywhere.

just kidding,
or maybe not
:)

i finally brought my earpiece to work today to listen to random nice music.
ya, like FINALLY after so long.

results will be out on 5th march.
i hope i dont do too badly.
hinting that i know it will be bad.
and everyone keeps telling me that i will do okay, but i am so not convinced at all.
SIGHS.

so the sites that i recommended are:

1. how to annoy people
2. a guide to which guys you need in your life
and
3. body language of guys

ya click on them to go to the respective sites.

looking forward to icecream buffet with weiling at ion orchard on friday! :)
not the part that i'm treating her tho.

anyways, boring day again.
and boring food.
urgh.

2010-02-23T16:23:00.002+08:00

HEY HEY!

i am so good at escaping work.

my boss has better not see this blog or else i will die badly and end up with never-ending pile of work. X(

so, i have plenty going on this week and i am running out of money.
okay not running out, running out but spending alot and not saving.
i should really really start my violin lessons soon and call my dearest huang lao shi!
i shall do so on wednesday.
no particular reasons for choosing this day :)

life has been happy.
but i was feeling a little uncomfortable a few moments ago.
feeling slightly dizzy after drinking MILO.
did someone spike my MILO?????

*faints*

just kidding.
so weiling was saying something about my blood sugar which i dont get.
okay, i hope i dont faint since i have never fainted before!
and so i dont know how it feels like.
which is why i would like to have an experience of it.
contradicting.

anyways, so i was bored(as usual) so i chance upon this interesting page on bored.com that kept me occupied and happy for a good period of time.

click here to go to the webbie!

okay, so i am officially bored again, after stalking people on face book, playing almost all the games on bored.com, going for random toilet breaks, looking at fashion stuffs online, laughing at how bad some people dress, gossiping, talking bad about people, taking a nap, blogging(now).

yeps, i did all that in one day.
and i get paid.
but i completed the things that i need to do alr before doing all those crap okay.

okay at this moment i just completed a short conversation with xiwen and i totally forgot what i was going to type.

hmm...

*thinking hard*

*still thinking hard*

oh ya, i was saying that i need to exercise my brains.
so i should play those brain games instead of those brainless ones.

ha.

cheers.

2010-02-22T11:09:00.004+08:00

there are so many things that i regret.
that i am unable to list them out.

SIGHS.

but what can i do, what's over is over.
like duh.

thats just too bad for me.

i've been trying hard to change, into someone better, who talks more, and i think i have changed.
right?

and i have just came into this realisation that things happen (duh, im not at my point yet) but the timing of how things happen affect the outcome greatly.
and this sounds like great expectations.

anyways, i have nothing to do at work again since i am an efficient individual and has completed all the task that i was given already.
HAHA.

the happy thing is, i have taken a half day on friday so that i can go on a ice cream buffet date with my dearest panda weiling!
cheers.

and thats all.

okay i realised that if i had ended here, this blog post will be boring.
so i shall type some more things.

so we(not to be disclosed) have been discussing about relationship, nice looking people and she gave me this link! which is a guide to which guys you need in your life.

and then i came across this which is about body language of guys.

they're so interesting.

you should read when you have the time! :)

2010-02-18T11:45:00.003+08:00

i finally have work to do but sadly the system has error.
so i cant do what im supposed to do and its not my fault.

i am going to bake apple pie and i hope the recipe works.
*cross fingers*

and i have realised that im spending money like no need money(free).
so i shall control my spending habits.
more window shopping shall do.
or not.

so i shall call my violin teacher next week in hope of continuing my lessons.
*dread dread*
sighs.
okay its not that i dont enjoy playing the violin, just that i need to spend time on one more thing.
so its like i have so many things to do that i dont do anything in the end.
and this is BAD.

thanks to weiling, i have decided to finally see what courses i am interested in.
and i have decided on philosophy, psychology, sociology and project & facilities management.
i so very want to get into law but i doubt my abilities to do so.

so, sighs.

i realised that i have yet to open up all my red packets, count the money, feel happy that i am richer and then bank them into my account.
i am such a MONEY FACE.
but money is good.

anyways, i cant wait to eat my fillet-o-fish meal later.
and the delivery guy came one hour early so we sent him back.

cheers.

2010-02-17T11:05:00.004+08:00

urgh.

the whole blog shop matter is killing me.
but I'm so NOT dead yet.
i shall stay strong and optimistic because I'm SO going to succeed.

*cheers for myself*

besides this complicated, vexing, annoying thing that's killing my brain cells, i am overall a happy person.

YAY.

cant wait to meet up with my primary school friends.
and i cant wait to go to cheekeong's house to bai nian and see how ugly he is and tell him so!
my dearest cheekeong you just wait and see how bad i will suan you since you suan-ed me so hard that day.

and i shall take a half day leave soon.
to eat ice cream buffet with my beloved super panda duo at ion orchard.
and gain so much calories and NOT exercise.

oh dear, i am getting fat.
and i shall do something about it.

and i have nothing to do online anymore.

BORED.

so i randomly googled skittles and found skittles vodka.
i so very want to try them.
it looks so cool!

2010-02-16T20:51:00.002+08:00

i went shopping with eugene today.
ya, cause we were both bored.

and i bought the i-have-always-wanted pouch.
the sad thing is that there were only two designs left.
the happy thing is that they were the ones that i had made up my mind to buy initially.
so it's this cute pink background with staves and notes and black cats.
yay.

and i bought this cool blue and white off shoulder with a bit of bling from Bershka.
and i realised that i love the clothes that they sell.
and i was totally not done with shopping and was dragged home.
:(((((

i shall go shopping again soon.
i need more bags and shoes.
and I'll wear the new shirt soon.
:)

i need to start violin lessons soon too.
to finish my grade 8 exams.
hope I'm still in time to play the pieces that i practiced.

so, in conclusion i need ALOT of paper that can be represented by $.
sighs.

2010-02-13T12:52:00.004+08:00

clubbing was full stop

okay so today the best thing that happened is that the whole family ate breakfast, lunch and dinner together.
perhaps its just because we're all that lazy.
but the food is good.
we just eat steamboat.
when i say that i mean the food that you cook in it.

sighs.

when i was watching sex and the city at work,
ya, sex and the city and,
ya, at work,
there was this episode where Carrie Bradshaw said that people/she/whatever will sometimes feel lonely even when surrounded by people.
and this is so so so true.

its like i have met so many people.
the the world population is so huge.
but the problem is, there is no one that really understand me.
i am a different kind of person and i know it.
its like i haven't met anyone with the same interests as me yet, thus the inability to sustain a conversation with 3 or more people in it.
its not that i want to be anti social, its just that i have nothing to say about it.
so i end up being anti social.
and not talk much.
because i have nothing to say.
so when i am not talking, pardon me, its just that i am not interested in what you are saying thus have nothing to say in return.

sighs.
so many sad things have happened recently.
and this is BAD.

some people complain about, and yearn to meet someone who loves them more than the person himself/herself.
while others hope to meet a person that he/she truly loves.

i belong to the latter.
i don't know what love is.
and is not interested in the relationship type of love now.
the truth is, there are so many things to do in life that i do not need it(it refers to what is mentioned in line 36 of this post)

(yeah, i really counted.)

i believe that all types of love can happen, except the one where strangers meet, fall in love(or not), get married and have children.
so i don't believe in love anymore.

yeps, i do not believe in Romantic Love anymore.

2010-02-12T08:46:00.002+08:00

yay, i'm goin'a clubbin' today!

with my dearest friend msmy.
hope she doesn't get too high and leave me alone to get cheated and raped.

Laugh Out Loud.

just kidding.

i think it'll be fun!
and i am finally, FINALLY going since ever since i wanted to go and everybody else is busy.

hope there'll be work to do today, and more people will come for jpae and dae-l so that i will have work to do.

have to go now.

2010-02-09T08:35:00.003+08:00

i bought a lot of stuffs on Saturday and i am very happy about it!

cant wait to get my pay from my first job as apparently i haven't got it yet.

*sad face*

i bought a black bling long tank top, a dark blue polka dot skirt, a pocket watch(i've been wanting to get one ever since), a bag(a great bargain right waner (((: ), a pair of shoes(cause mine broke halfway), a red belt and a red bangle!

still have more things to buy.

my mum says i should save up for my future schooling uses.
and i think i should too.
so i shall try.

anyways, i think i will become a shopaholic.
which is a good or bad thing?

work has been good =)
just that if i have alternatives, i would definitely go; like quit this job which is making me lose my brains away.

i want to buy more shoes and clothes.
but i need to save up.
*internal struggles*

)#&%(@^#%&)$#@%(*&$

sighs.
i should spend less on food.
that's always the best method.
yay.

2010-02-05T10:20:00.000+08:00

the obvious display of preference.
that is why first impression kills.

2010-02-04T10:52:00.002+08:00

i got my glue gun like 2 days ago and i am still so excited!
yay.

i made pineapple tarts yesterday with some help from my mum, they taste not too bad but still has room for improvements.
will try again soon.

i realise how much my friends and family care about me so i cannot let myself be depressed.
its like your friends and family care for you and you care for them back and it never ends, or at least i hope it doesn't.

i finally got some things to do today.
*cheers*
and I'm done with it already.
*sighs*

that is why i have time to blog now.

i have so many things to do recently that i am not making much progress in my blogshop!
urgh.

and when i was playing on my violin last night, i realise that it is very nice.
haha.
wait till i perfect my two favourite pieces i will perform for everyone who wants to hear them.

the things that i like to play are like slow things with nice melody or loud and agitated and fast things which i usually cant do very well.
sighs, nice things are usually difficult.
and that's what practicing is for.

I'm going to buy chains later, and finally getting back my clothes from chrisliew!
its not good to owe people things till after Chinese new year.

i shall take pictures of the nice looking little pineapple tarts when i feel like it later and post it here.

and, i have nothing more to say for now.

2010-02-03T15:43:00.004+08:00

i finally got my laptop.
and i have nothing to do.

IDLE.

anyways.
it is a sad thing to realise that there is no turning backs in life, we can only move on.

sighs. sighs. sighs.

apparently i have awoken to the fact that i have screwed up a part of my life so badly that it stays like an ugly scar.
so I'll keep that in mind and never allow myself to screw my life up again.

meanwhile, just let me squat down in a dark lonely corner and cry.

for this moment, all i want to say is: I LEAD A SAD LIFE.
(although i know there are many out there that leads sadder lives, oh, just let me complain for once.)

okay I'm done crying.

sometimes some sins committed just cannot be forgiven.
and i cant forgive myself for some of the things i have done.

there are so many people(okay, not alot exactly, only 2 in my mind) that i cant bring myself to face.
for the things i have done to them, directly and indirectly.

i am really really sorry.

sighs.

since now i have awoken to this fact, i shall do something to salvage the situation, so that when i die, i wont regret as i know i have tried.

2010-02-01T21:08:00.009+08:00

work has been boring as usual.
i finished reading my book and realised that my hair's condition has improved(according to my dear waner too).
yay.
my hard work pays off.

where is msmy?!!
i want to discuss our clubbing trip, don't put my pigeon okay!

i have become so aimless and this is NOT good.
i should start finding some motivating aims to keep myself going.

oh speaking of aimlessness, i took random pictures in the office i work at today, and nope they are not of people.

this is the table surface.

the thing that i stare at when i look straight ahead.

the light above me.

the green rocking chair beside me.

the carpeted floor.

life is full of so many problems that are interconnected, sometimes i think that the purpose of living is to solve the problems that we created.
living creates problems.
the solving of one problem creates two other problems.
to solve the two other problems, more problems arise.
this is a never-ending vicious circle.
so, too bad.
we're like hoping to reach a day where the problems end, or a day where the problems left can be fully ignored; left unattended to without compromising much of our welfare and interests.
so will this day come?
and even if this day comes, without problems, will we lose our will to live?

2010-01-31T18:11:00.005+08:00

tired.

oh no, i need to go to work again on monday, hope i dont have much things to do.

class chalet was enjoyable, cycling is cool but tiring.
i almost died.

one cool thing that happened.

and, i still havent got my pay yet!!!

@(*$^*&@!^$*&!^@$*&

sighs sighs sighs sighs sighs.

sighs.

sighs. sighs.

i just dont know why i am sighing, but SIGHS.

2010-01-27T20:59:00.004+08:00

going to work has been boring for Monday and Tuesday but today was okay!
it will be okay for tomorrow and Friday too, i hope.
one can really meet interesting people when working in a job that requires interaction with people. hahs.

yay, we are finally going out for a drink tomorrow after work and i so totally hope that i will not be super tired the next day that i can't work properly XXXP

HEYYYY anyways, sorry about not updating my blog as my comp was dead for the last few days and has been freshly revived by my lovely brother today.

i had been secretly planning my blog shop during working hours(since i have nothing to do anyway) and is super excited about it.
whoots~
but i realised i still have many things to buy and Chinese new year is approaching soon and i am obliged to work from Mondays to Fridays thus is not really as free as i was in the past to go to a shop to buy the materials.
in other words, i have planned the design, layout of the web page, the things that I'm going to sell, the materials needed to make them, blah blah and blah.

sighs.

i hate the way my neighbours behave but theres nothing constructive that i can do.

sighs.

i am supposed to practice my violin daily but i just cant find the motivation to do it. so i shall post it here where everyone can read this, thus give myself more pressure to do it because if i don't, all who reads and realise that i do not shall point their index finger(on their right hands) at me and detest me to an extent that i will retreat to a lonely corner and cry the rest of my life away.

just kidding.

i realised that i have been living in my own world for most of the time and enjoying it.
haha, that's why i say things that people don't know what to respond to.
like for example, today, me, weiling and xiwen were walking towards the train station/bus interchange happily when i suddenly realised that the clouds in the sky looked like those that appears in geog text books(i should have taken a picture of the clouds), and so i commented to them about it. and they looked at me blankly. =)

and i realised that i don't know many things that usual teenagers know. and i cant even give examples since i don't even know what they know!

these two examples thus succinctly proves that i live in my own world which is not really a good thing and i must try to get myself more involved in other peoples' worlds or the common world that people live in.

btw,

i like this dress!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
nice right?
ya very nice,
see i knew it.

2010-01-23T22:02:00.004+08:00

i love this song!

and I'm going to learn it by heart and record it and put it on my blog.

i have just realised that i do not read other people's blogs and that is a bad bad thing.
so i shall try to read more of my friends' blogs.
I'll try.

you see, the radiation emitted from the computer screen is bad for your skin, thus we should minimise the usage of computers,
either that or stay as far away from the screen as possible when u are using it, or put on sunscreen.

haha, the image that appears in my mind is hilarious.

anyways, i am going to change the background of my blog and I'm going to change it now.
therefore, I'm now officially busy with designing my blog skin.

I'm finally done and I'm so exhausted now.
*yawns*
and I'm so proud of my final result!
yay, its SO Gothic, cute and simple simultaneously.
i guess I'll do the touch ups next time since I'm so tired and spent so long in front of the computer already.

goodbye.

2010-01-22T23:06:00.003+08:00

torture part 2 will start on Monday.
but i hope it wont be a torture, since i have my panda friend to work with me and super coincidentally, xiwen!!!

okay so today, kind and sweet weiling made me wake up at 6am to meet her at bp interchange before going to tanjong pagar to sign contract together. and when i was crossing the road, i saw the bus that I'm supposed to board right beside me and thus i did a 100m dash towards the bus stop which was about 100m away from where i was(middle of the road literally). disregarding the omg-what-on-earth-is-this-girl-doing-early-in-the-morning looks that people gave, i successfully boarded the bus and went to sleep!

oh and it was like raining and i thought i brought my umbrella but i didn't.
sighs.
things like this always happen, to me.

the most exciting thing that happened today was, the rain stopped eventually.
haha, just kidding.
me and weiling went on an excursion.
like to random places.
hmm, we went to chinatown to do some cny shopping, okay mostly it was just me.
and i bought charms and beads and ribbons, omg weiling i cant express my love and gratitude towards you in words, so i shall use symbols that we all don't understand.

@*$&#^$&#^@*&%$@&*#%$&*@#

=))

okay anyways, i need to exercise.
arghs.

i will try to upload the pictures i took with my beloved aunty friends soon! =)
and i cant wait to get my pay to be banked into my account, like really.

2010-01-19T23:41:00.002+08:00

it's like finally over!!
whoohoos~
*jumps for joy*

anyways, this job has been a great experience.
i met so many different kinds of people, like fun people, perverts, weird customers and blah.
and i cant wait to get my pay and i have so many people to treat,
and i cant wait to go for the long awaited ice cream buffet!!!

and i cant wait to bake pineapple tarts for Chinese new year, butter cookies, apple pie and cook curry chicken again

and buy all the things i need to make the accessories and set up my blog shop!

i was like so looking forward to the end of today, but at the same time dont want to leave my new friends!
i'll sure miss many things but well life goes on.

argh. without the arrival of my pay, i'll just have to stay at home for the time being.
argh argh.

2010-01-13T21:41:00.002+08:00

i believe everyone is busy and so am i.

the sacrifices made for earning money.

anyways, i met like super interesting people while working as a promoter.

and i have a blatant hatred for perverts especially those who are old and ugly but still think they are hot and attractive(omg), ya and they really exist.
they shld really have more self realisation that they shld just hide themselves up or cease to exist in this world or stop doing things that annoys people.

i hope that they all go away and stop disturbing me, like really go away, go away, go away.

and my neighbour is screaming her lungs out now, like wow, contemporary late night music to enjoy on my precious off day. whoots, how nice of them.

2010-01-04T15:42:00.006+08:00

omg the video recorder on my phone is so not good.

anyways, here is my version of 下雨天! requested by lck.
i advice you who want to listen to adjust the volume to half the length of the bar before clicking on play!

its not very well done but i recorded like so many times i'll just upload this, its not easy being a perfectionist, right weiling?!

2010-01-03T22:53:00.002+08:00

today i had a lamerstory gang steamboat session at zeyi's house of which after dinner we played boring monopoly!

and one memorable moment that took place today was when zeyi and chris came back and zeyi was eating the prawn from the hotpot and commented that its very sweet and i said that that's because i put my lollipop into the soup(i was eating this super huge lollipop that chris bought from her trip) and eugene backed me up by saying that i stuck the lollipop into the soup and stirred it so it dissolved into the soup. so logically, zeyi was stunned and totally believed that it took place and was going to spit the prawn out when we told him it was just a joke. and here comes to the most important point, he actually said, "that's because it sounds totally like something i will do."

... and i take it as a compliment.

anyways, i bought a pair of pink hello kitty flats yesterday! it was supposed to be a shopping strip which i accompany weiling to buy her shoes but i ended up buying shoes too. anyways, its so pretty and I'm so happy that i bought it.

i really, sincerely hope that my job interview on Tuesday will be successful and not be a scam again so i can finally get a job and start working and earn MONEY. cause i want to buy the diamond ring for my mum!

so, I'm playing boy and the blob nowadays and the boy and his blob are so CUTE! especially when you press the up button, the boy will hug his blob which makes you go "awwww...". its this puzzle game where you're supposed to collect treasure chests and the blob will help you do so by transforming into different things such as parachute or ladder and you must keep away from all the black gooey stuffs that will kill you, but whatever cause nothing will happen when you die, you'll just appear again to continue the level. but i love the graphics and the way the game is played.

okay and yesterday weiling and I went into cck library and we did interesting stuffs inside! so i found this book entitled "211 things a clever girl can do" and the content of the book is fairly engaging so i borrowed it, and according to weiling its a stupid book! haha, like totally what i will read.

2010-01-01T23:11:00.004+08:00

this is the lunch i made and my brother said i can go and sell it in a shop.

and i bought a white and grey striped long-sleeved short dress with a hoodie!(super happy since i've been looking for one for super long)

okay so weiling was telling me her experience of breaking slippers while outside.

so my slippers spoiling when outside experience was like about 2 years ago.
i was on my way home from violin lesson and i decided to walk home from class that day (about 20min walk).
and so coincidentally, my slippers broke half way home!
so it was a bright sunny afternoon and i have very fair skin so i dragged my feet and looked like i was going to faint any moment so every passer-by was like staring at me with a tinge of concern, horror and disgust on their faces.

but this interesting experience has allow me to meet several interesting individuals! okay so i met this old man(not the song) who told me to be cool and take off my slippers and walk bare footed, and he laughed while he walked away.

and there was this group of bengs who openly laughed at me and said that i looked stupid (thanks a lot, like i didn't know). but there was this kind hearted young lady who offered help and asked me if i need her to buy a pair of slippers for me!

anyways, so the story ends by my super mum coming to my rescue with another pair of slippers.

the end.

sometimes i think its fun to do stupid things and observe how different people will respond to your stupidity! we should try these kind of things more often to spice up our lives, really. like enjoy being/acting stupid.

cockroach vs. screaming kids

2009-12-31T23:44:00.002+08:00

you cant imagine how much i strongly dislike both of them.
and when both of them happen on the same day,

CONGRATULATIONS TO ME!

sighs...

so as usual my screaming neighbours do their usual activities and then a moment ago i was in the kitchen, trying to cut an apple for a late night snack and i saw a cockroach.
this still doesn't sound bad, the bad part is that the cockroach had friends.

omg, my mum say they came to our house for a visit from our neighbours house, either that or they are trying to gather in our house for a count down party. too bad, they didn't live to see 2010.

anyways, i made many things today. a pink bow hair band, a hair tie, clips, shall put the pictures up after i have taken them.

and i cooked lunch for my stupid brother today, and i took a picture of it, and I'm very proud of it as usual.
its like scramble eggs, fried fish fillet and spaghetti.

2009-12-30T22:24:00.006+08:00

firstly, this is the pot of curry chicken i cooked yesterday for dinner! and im very proud of it.

and today, i was searching for wholesale hair pins and clips online and got distracted and searched for cute tortoise instead.
i found this so cute! (disclaimer: this does not belong to me) anyways, arent tortoises just so cute. i know bernice will support me for this! =)

P.S. i did not cook curry with tortoise and both of them are not related in any ways just that they both happen to appear in the same post out of my usual randomness.

2009-12-29T11:23:00.007+08:00

i went out with weiling yesterday and i bought lotsa nice things!

with which i made nice things too!

okay so this is a handphone accessory with a treble clef charm and its like black. i think its very pretty and my dad says i can make like a series of it and sell to orchestra and band ppl.
what a great idea, so i shall hunt for like instrument charms next time. i think i shall give this out as a present.

these hair ties look so cute. and i spent alot of time sewing the cloth cause i didnt use the sewing machine. but they're just samples.

and i bought this super cute book of cards of cats!
see! snow white!

marilyn monroe!

mona lisa!

and little red riding hood! see weiling they are cute okay!

2009-12-27T16:26:00.003+08:00

i suspect i will become a workaholic next time.

but i will keep in mind that no matter how much i like to work, i still must free out some time for my family and friends!

anyone interested in going clubbing with me text me okay!

okay i shall have longer posts since no body engages my tag board.

umm, i have not been doing much at home because I WANT TO WORK and the manager has not contacted me yet since the day he said he will, so i suspect its a scam.

anyways, i hope i can take my g8 exam next yr but i havent contact my violin teacher yet... ... ...
sighs...
i shall really prac very extremely hard so i will get a distinction!
and do my teacher proud!
okay.

i really really want to go on a crazy shopping trip now but i really really cant as i need to get my first pay cheque first.

so, I NEED TO START WORKING SOON.
hope that i will get a reply soon.

2009-12-26T16:09:00.000+08:00

at least i think i have a good heart.

grandpa's birthday

2009-12-20T22:09:00.002+08:00

everyone's respond after they saw my earrings was, "are you selling them online?" or something along that line.

anyways, i make a birthday card for my grandpa every year(okay almost every) since the day i was interested in doing it and had the sincerity to do it, its like i can see how i have matured from the design of the cards i gave to him since like 10 years ago till now. *cool~*

okay so this year i made this really cool card that i actually forgot to take a picture of! but its cool. like oriental since the older generations like red and gold; auspicious colours. and i'm really touched that my grandma displayed the bouquet of origami flowers that i gave her on her birthday. *sniffs*

there's like so many things to prepare before i can get my blog shop going, especially when i'm doing everything myself, everything, ya everything. unless someone wants to help me! like sympathy aid or friendly aid. but i'm like really really excited about it. whoots.

and lastly, crying makes one really tired.

fun

2009-12-19T00:27:00.002+08:00

its so late alr but im still not going to sleep.

fun friends are one of the best gifts one can get and i have quite a few of them!

i really wish to be more high and more integrated into the social circle that im in but the imaginary boundary i have built towards guys are preventing me to do so?

i just dont know why sometimes i just behave this way.

just trying to protect myself from being hurt again, so if i have offended anyone in any ways due to my behaviour, please forgive as im also trying hard not to do things that piss people off.

SIGHS.

2009-12-17T16:58:00.003+08:00

i've read about something somewhere that the purpose of living is to change the world.

so i asked myself what is my purpose of living,
and i realised that there are many.

i'm neither pretty nor smart but at least i am born normal, i can earn money and contribute to the society.

i want to go to south africa, go bag pack traveling, buy my mum a diamond ring, get a comfortable house for my parents to live in, have my own accessory shop, go for crazy shopping trips, meet fun people, meet people who are struggling to live on, know their stories and they shall be my motivation to live on, because at least in some ways i can help them, like listen to their problems, share their pain.

but there are so many people who needs help and i cant help all of them.

sighs.

anyways, i have come to a realisation that it is always the stronger ones that aid the weaker ones.
for example, if a guy and a girl are supposed to carry heavy boxes, the guy will carry the heavier ones and the girl will carry the lighter ones.
DCs are able, maybe even obliged, to help LDCs.
older siblings help younger ones.
richer helps poorer.
smarter helps less smart.

and due to the nature of difference in personalities, comparative advantage, people help people and it becomes like a healthy cycle of helping each other out so sometimes the LDCs helps the DCs too, stupid helps the smart, poor helps the rich, as we are all good at different things.

just found this interesting.

oh and i really admire people who gives up everything to chase their dreams, i really respect them, no matter what kind of dreams they are chasing after.

2009-12-13T00:18:00.002+08:00

update of my gallery please go and check out the new stuffs i made!

and i need a better camera!
anyways, my dad loves taking pictures and used to take me out to take pictures when i was younger and i really enjoyed those trips. he has this antique camera that's not working already, but i will find someone to fix it no matter how expensive it will be.

i have two new dresses and a jacket today.

and the pictures are taking incredibly long to upload...

anyways, i was thinking that i will portion out a part of my income to sponsor the education of children in africa and was feeling lost when i saw(online) that so many of them need help.

sighs.

i really think that education is vital to the growth and improvement of lives, and the elimination of the problem of poverty.
at least basic education.

its like when people grow up in poor circumstances, they really strive to improve since they know what its like to suffer, they really treasure what they have and what they can have.
its like some of the people there are really talented but have limited or no opportunity to showcase them.
and some people like us still dont treasure the life that we are leading now, the education opportunities we get(not talking about the system but the knowledge and materials) when we should.

however so, the circumstances that we are in are different(we and them), and it might be true that if they were us and we were them, situation will still be like what it is today.

i was going to say that we are more fortunate than them, but i realise that it may not be the case since the different habitat that we are in cause different problems altogether. this is such a complicated issue i need to think about it for some more.

anyways, i really hope that someone can come up with a solution to stop whatever bad is going on in the world. and i was thinking that perhaps the only solution is for humans to die out, since most problems are created by us, to be prevented by us but even further complicated which is known as the viscous circle leading to the end of our world, bringing all the others(plants, animals) with us.

2009-12-11T13:10:00.003+08:00

where has my tag board disappeared to?!

anyways, sighs, i didnt watch princess and the frog today T_T
anyone want to watch it with me soon, like really really soon?! text me okay!

i've done much shopping recently but just plain window shopping!
actually buying clothes harm the environment so we should limit to like 3 pieces a year or sth like that, i shall try my very best to stick to that.

i wanted to bake sugee biscuit but dont know where to buy semolina flour but i shall find it soon.

its actually a sad thing when one needs to accept that the presence of ugly people is to make pretty people more pretty but whatever i still believe that everyone is beautiful.

and my neighbors are really really really annoying to an extent that you can never imagine because you dont live beside them.

okay try to imagine screaming little girls, 3 of them and a crying baby, one of the screaming little girls is violent, slam things like her bicycle, teaches her little sister to be violent and to scream, mostly they scream on an individual basis probably when they cant get what they want, but when they scream in harmony, its like watching dogs and cats in a fight, plus on the volume to max.
screaming has become something that i hear on a daily basis, unless i was lucky and had been out the whole day or they had been out the whole day and this is really really a huge bonus since they enjoy screaming and playing along corridors, sharing the "fun" that they are having with everyone, great, like i really wanted to know.

they have the inability of closing their doors except when they are having an afternoon nap which is the most wonderful time of the day for enjoying the peace and tranquility of the neighborhood.

when they are screaming, nothing is done and i think that their mothers should educate them effective communication and not just scream like a herd of animals.
this is known as growing up happily at the expense of others and i surely do not have to tolerate their inappropriate and disturbing behavior since i am not their mother and they do not have a relationship close enough for me to do so.

they have thus successfully cultivated a chronic hatred for children, especially screaming ones who are females, adding on to the stress of people of our country not wanting to contribute to the population in fear of producing children just like them (not that we are incapable of educating children properly but the phobia and hatred towards them).

and in conclusion, thanks to these little wonderful creatures from foreign lands bringing much joy to our nation as the hope of OUR future, i am actually very excited to know what our country will become with the increasing numbers of them.

2009-12-08T13:32:00.001+08:00

why did i cry so hard when i hear this song

i think when a heart is broken too many times, it can never be healed anymore

2009-12-04T14:55:00.002+08:00

okay there was a problem with the html of my blog and im trying my best to fix it but due to overly intense mugging during the A's i have frighteningly forgotten how to edit html...

money is so important.

and so are good neighbors.
i really hope that i can move to a quiet and peaceful place and live a slow pace of life.

it's been raining alot because its december.

really hope i can start work soon so that i can earn money which is so important.

2009-11-27T23:56:00.007+08:00

anyone interested in playing "Radical Dreamers" with me?! i play the violin part.
i think its so mesmerising!

2009-11-24T11:59:00.002+08:00

one more paper left.

one of the worse things you can ever get is noisy neighbour with screaming children that behave like animals, scream on a hourly basis like cats, bark like dogs, and especially so when they pee uncontrollably on the corridors (thankfully not directly outside mine).

anyways, i have cultivated this patience level for noise level that is considerably high such that i have become slightly immune to noise esp noisy screaming girls. but i swear that if i ever have children next time they better not be daughters. or i'll lock them up in a sound proof room and let them die if they are noisy either that or they are mutes or either that they behave like how i did in the past where my mum taught me well enough to behave like a civilised little girl.

btw, i love the pierces!

2009-11-03T21:16:00.002+08:00

everyone has a tolerance level for noise and mine has been reached.

thanks to my dearest neighbours. and the mere mentioning of them makes my blood boil.
you cannot imagine the things that they do.
Laugh out louds(it isn't very funny if you go through it yourself).

i have decided to collect evidence so that in the very near future, i can use it to prove how much repercussion they bring to the residents in my area.

i would very much like to express an opinion here on my blog.
if they welcome migrants from the Less Developed Countries, educate them or let them live together with all those people like them so that they have more similar habitat that will not cause disruption to each other since they behave the same way.

i seriously do not think that normal children will scream at least 3 times a day and run about corridors outside other people's home and scribble on public floors and walls (vandalism) of the HDB flat.

i finally understood the desperate reason why people of the same category cluster at the same area. because for the locals here, the period for THEM to integrate (if they ever will) is unbearable.

i have made some sweeping statements above i admit but this IS a serious problem to me and to many out there, i believe. it is not about culture differences. it is about education to THEM and how they in turn educate their children (who may become part of our population).

and i dont think it is a normal sight for local children to not wear any form of clothing at their bottom half of the body when running around the corridor. i believe they have already violated several segments of the law which i can easily find out and inform the relevant authorities which can take action (i hope) to eliminate these people who cause disruptions or the behavior of theirs which is causing disruption.

my A level year is GREAT. the noise, the stress and the hope to do well, its a miracle that i'm not crazy yet. whoohoo~

2009-10-30T21:50:00.002+08:00

A's is approaching and i will just give in my best.
like we actually paid for the papers and H1 is not worth half the price of H2 papers but more, and i actually took 2 H1 subjects so it's like more expensive than taking 4 H2 subjects.

anyways, i watched camp rock on channel Octo today and totally fell in love with "this is me" again.
*screams* but i cant sing it well its not my style.

i seriously should NOT have gone to a junior college but since i have, i shall do my best. I'll try to try to do my best.

sighs.

cant wait for A's to be OVER.
and this day will come soon. :) phew.

2009-10-27T19:34:00.002+08:00

whats the point of having money when people around you are suffering.

but when you help those who are suffering, some may really appreciate it while some may demand more and more.

so what are we supposed to do?

but i still strongly believe that people do not mean harm by nature, just the way different individuals behave and speak.

it'll be good to know that at least we are all just like each other when all other things are put aside.

2009-10-16T22:56:00.003+08:00

ten great reasons to explain why I'm like that:

#1 I always appear calm and composed because there's simply no use panicking.

#2 I have been sensitive to others, concerned about others and I don't feel myself getting much care and concern, at least most of the time. so I'm feeling drained of my energy which i don't have much left. so i always appear to be calm and composed. its time to care more about myself.

#3 I don't have to articulate myself when i don't want to. at least i have the freedom to choose when i want to speak right. so i always rather listen than talk.

#4 I always can't seem to find an entry in conversations consisting of more than 4 individuals. I find interruptions rude, so more often than not i would keep my comments to myself. and if they're funny I'll just have a good laugh inside.

#5 The things that interests me enough to strike a conversation usually are unique. so i just have to strike a conversation with myself. thus i usually answer my own queries.

#6 I enjoy making beautiful things for people whom i care because there's nothing more glad to find out the warmth that people gets when they know you care. and that's perhaps one of the best things one can get in life; sheltering one with an umbrella on a rainy day. the feeling you get when you give is great. but there needs to be a balance between giving and receiving because we're all just human. so i just need a break.

#7 I just keep everything to myself because in the end there's only me who is there for me. there's no need to trouble other individuals with your private problems since they already have enough of their own. and there are so many more people out there who faces worse problems than mine so my problems can be solved or put aside.

#8 I have no super close friends to stick with whenever something happens. I have to be independent, there's no choice. This phenomenon is perhaps due to me being so conserved or due to the various mistakes that i have made. and this is a great regret that i have because time cannot be reversed and i have accepted this fact and so moved on with my life by myself.

#9 I have so many regrets in life although I'm only 18. so i will not let myself face any regret anymore. or i will try my best not to.

#10 The complication of the world is intimidating. I have so many sides of me that others do not know. so I'm still looking for a place where i belong. and so far, the only place that i can identify as that is home - where i can do anything i like and be sheltered away from the outside world that is made up of too many layers that i cannot find an adjective to describe.

disclaimer: this is not a complaint, lament, or anything of that sort. okay maybe a little. but i think i behave so strangely and mysteriously that i have such a meager social network that i greatly accentuated my quietness and calmness. maybe my life's just like that.

2009-09-14T22:11:00.001+08:00

i am so very annoyed by my noisy neighbor that i did stupid things to noise them back. and i pissed off my dad. great that im childish. because i will not be and i will go negotiate with them tomorrow and hope that they understand what i say.

2009-08-10T22:22:00.002+08:00

i was feeling soooooooo stressed after violin lesson that day, two days ago.
but now im alright.
and i think this is bad.
I am too over optimistic?
sighs.

anyways, i was thinking that it would have been great if i had not entered a jc and a music or arts school instead. at least i will enjoy doing my work more. and find them more useful. and i really havent been practicing my violin much and this is very extremely bad since im planning to take my g8 exam next year. sighs.

what is the point of taking A levels.
actually there are many but they're just not what i want in life.

but whatever, since im like in this #&^@% i might as well give in my best, at least try my best to give in my best.

and lastly, I WANT TO SING WITH A LIVE BAND!!!! its like so fun, like with guitar, keyboard and drums. omg drums. so any kind souls who are willing to let me sing with a band please approach me!!! because i think that is one of the things i must do before i pass away.

to all my friends, happy mugging, to let yall relax from all those stress, here's a joke:

so i was writing down the prelim schedule in my notebook and i saw that on the previous page it was written as Wednesday, 15.08 so i calculated that today is 20.08 and i was shocked because prelims starts on 02.09 and i really thought for a moment that im going to pass away because theres like so little time left. but i suspected that theres something wrong so i asked my mum what is todays date and she told me," yesterday was national day, so what date issit today?". and i was like oh ya, phews.

so moral of the story, i should improve on my handwriting.

2009-07-29T21:04:00.002+08:00

yesterday was my birthday.
and thanks to my family and friends i had a good day =)
and i really like my presents!
yay so i can do alot of things like drink, drive, smoke, blah legally.

anyways, the highlight of today is the ultimate AGM.
yayness, FINALLY i can officially not go for band stuffs anymore, forever.
YES!

2009-07-12T20:39:00.008+08:00

my life will be optimistic.

because i made 3 necklaces today!

TADA:

i really like them and i shall wear them out the next time i go out.
yay.

i think i am positive about things recently and thats good.
looking forward to the science centre davinci exhibition on 25th july!

2009-07-03T13:12:00.002+08:00

my life ain't so great lately, ain't too bad either.
sighs.

ct is finally over.
but i don't feel much really, maybe because its too exhausting.
but at least i've done my best.

i seriously sincerely DO NOT want to go for band pracs anymore.
why do i have to go really.
sighs.
there is simply no point whatsoever.

the happy thing is that i made a dress today, out of old dresses.
and it looks great.
its like pink and white.

i cant wait for A's to be over.
great.

2009-06-26T22:50:00.002+08:00

okay so school's starting in like 3 days.
*faints*
actually i'm feeling quite bored at home, but school's gonna start with common test.
sighs.

anyways, why is 1st of july an exam day?!...
but the good news is that theres a youth day holiday.

and i'm so looking forward to the da vinci exhibition at the science centre!!!
whoots~

i know i wont do well for common test but i'll still try my best.
and that rhymes.
and i really think that education is losing its meaning.
sighs.
i just read my econs notes today to have realised that all these we're studying is for the good of the future economy of our country.
and good economy means better life.
i really hope that the world can slow down.
but i guess it's already gone too fast to do that.
so i really hope that there'll be some breakthrough to save the world.

but my violin teacher said that people nowadays are getting lazier and lazier, and he gave the example that past composers came out with such outstanding, beautiful, mesmerising, great compositions which people of today cannot.
and i think that perhaps it is true, or just that he belongs to the older generations where the present generation see beauty in a different p.o.v., either that or its just his taste.
but i believe that there's some truth to it.
oh well.

2009-06-16T18:48:00.011+08:00

holidays are like going to end soon.
but i made more pretty things!
featuring the cute hair clips and pins:

please feel free to give any comments on my tag board!~

2009-06-09T20:29:00.004+08:00

Featuring my creations!!!:

2009-06-02T22:28:00.009+08:00

sighs.
life is so confusing sometimes that you end up feeling confused because you spend time thinking about something simple; or not.
so yeps. sighs.

ANYWAYS.
i have decided to set up my blogshop like really soon to test out if my stuffs have a market.
u-huh.

and thus i have taken pix of some of my works:

i spend alot of time on this.
and i think its like elegant and sophisticated.
haha.
i think this is my most expensive work so far.

i saw a how to make a tiara online and tried one.
the actual size is quite small so it'll be adorable on a little girl in a princess dress =)

i like this and i spend frustratingly long to add in the chain at the bottom.
but the end product is satisfactory.

and this shall be my shop logo.

and life's going on well, except sometimes when i tell my mind to tell me that it isnt.
oh well.
goodbye.

2009-05-07T22:36:00.002+08:00

okay so i came out with this logical thought that,
since we always reach school on time or earlier, the school should make the same effort to open the gate on time, at least.
so, great.
anyways, i think that if improvements are to be made, good effort needs to be put in.

and syf is finally over.
yays cheers.
i need to catch up on school work!
sighs.

okay so i cant wait to get enrolled into a university (if i can ever make it), get a job (since i have never worked before). and quickly set up my own shop which i promise to be a good service person since many people out there are not exactly very kind to people who only looks and not purchase anything. uhuh.

and i finally uploaded photos on facebook,
like finally figured out how to do it.

and i can never make it to pass my standing broad jump.
and i think that results of competition aint anything,
since there are like at least 100 factors to consider how well one will do in a competition, and facts have already shown the truth.
thus, competitions are just like a goal people work towards; push themselves and each other to improve.
thats all.
good bye.

2009-04-26T22:19:00.002+08:00

yay my blog is like dead, so am i.

haha.

so ive been very busy recently
and im falling in love with my violin again
im so very motivated to play well.
and i hope this motivation lasts forever.

and i made a necklace today and its so pretty so im very satisfied with it tho i dont know when i can make good use of it.

not very productive academically today.
and the most happy thing this week was to have ponned lessons on friday.
goodbye.

2009-03-13T17:17:00.002+08:00

i am going overseas tomorrow.
and i am not going for my violin lesson and band pracs on saturday and monday.
this is great.

and.
i have successfully not go to school today for like once in my entire JC life.
and it feels like nothing.
*jumps for joy*
actually not, i feel slightly uncomfortable, like all people who are ill.
sighs.

anyways, it was so expensive, like 57 bucks.
*faints*
but anyways, i hope i will get well by tomorrow.
*gasps*
uhuh.
but i am feeling much better already(like duh, 57 bucks).
and looking forward to the trip,
except for the medication may cause drowsiness part.